Yeah, I think I’ve internalized all those rules but they remain in my conscious and us usual I have a hard time doing any thinking in the faster instinctual zone.
But it’s a struggle that I enjoy and muddle through and catch glimpses of beauty in even as they move farther away from the pain/pleasure balance I’m supposed to be experiencing.
It’s interesting that I’m able to describe the mechanics of action combat systems to people and analyze their purpose and effect but only perform them in games running at below-average speed.



