Pharmaceuticals

i am creating this thread to discuss prescribed meds. in essence, i want to discuss the pros and cons of a variety of meds for things like anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder (all ailments i possess), and so on. anecdotes and experience-sharing are welcomed and solicited.

my current (and recent) cocktail consists of the following:

Brand name / Generic name / brief description


  • Lamictal / lamotrigine / anticonvulsant, mood stabilisation
  • Oleptro / trazodone / sleeping aid, antidepressant
  • Xanax / alprazolam / benzodiazepine, anxiety, panic attacks

i am likely to be prescribed an additional antidepressant soon, possibly one of the following:

  • Lexapro / escitalopram / SSRI, antidepressant
  • Zoloft / sertraline / SSRI, antidepressant

i suppose it’s possible i could be prescribed Celexa / citalopram as well, though I don’t know much about that one.

as of today i’ve been taking the lamotrigine for a little over a week. this is a drug i’ve taken before, in late 2014, but i lost (resigned from) my job after i was admitted to the psych ward for suicidal ideation and haven’t had insurance since; thus, no meds either. functionally, it seems to bring the highs and lows closer together; for a manic-depressive that spends the majority of her time on the bottom end of that spectrum, this is not remotely a bad thing. the new Rx hasn’t quite reached full potency yet, so we’ll keep an eye on that. not too expensive either, which is a plus.

trazodone is really effective. the first few days were accompanied by a mild zombification in the mornings that usually passed by mid-day. since then, however, the zombie effect has significantly lessened and i feel far more in control of my sleep habits. my insomnia is to the point where i absolutely do not ever fall asleep unless i explicitly pass out. there is essentially no time i can remember being able to fall asleep of my own volition without being unable to stay awake. this is, obviously, a huge problem, and trazodone has been helping a lot. i didn’t realize at first it was also an antidepressant, but it will take some more time before i can comment on those effects. i will say that i feel more neutral in general and less likely to get immensely stressed lately, and i feel semi-confident in attributing some of that to the trazodone.

conversely, some of that i can also attribute to the alprazolam. this is a goddamn miracle drug as far as i’m concerned. panic attacks are some of the most unpleasant experiences, and this drug competently mitigates them. thus far, i’ve found the best usage is to monitor my anxiety ticks (mine are usually excessively facepalming and fidgeting / playing with my hair), and take one when i notice them. this keeps me from getting into full-blown anxiety attacks quite effectively so far, with a mitigation rate of 100%. not a single blow-up since starting the current regimen. not too shabby, since i usually have a pretty significant one at least once or twice a week.

i will update with more impressions and thoughts, but i’m eager to hear others’ details as well.

<3

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i’m really glad to hear you’re able to get back on medication and that it’s working for you!

i’d prefer to leave out the details but i can say that in the past zoloft worked decently for me. i got switched to seroquel (quetiapine) to see if it would work better and it made things very, very, very bad. it was terrifying enough that i have not been on medication since then (12 years or so).

not really looking to have a conversation about my end of it, just wanted to show some solidarity!

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I take buproprion aka Wellbutrin 300mg/day

It’s a DNRI as opposed to your garden variety SSRI antidepressant. Was originally indicated for smoking cessation, but it turns out it’s one of the few antidepressants that doesn’t generally destroy your sex drive or will to live expressively. It’s a nice and subtle thing and I’ve sort of settled on it - or at least, i did until these last three weeks or so. I missed 3 days as a result of poor planning and I’m currently experiencing one of the hardest downswings I can remember having in a while. Although I guess every one of them feels like the worst one.

I used to take venlafaxine and seroquel, a combination which I consider to be the closest thing to living death that one could offer a person of my particular chemistry. That was quite a long time ago. Before my current Rx I was taking atomoxentine which was actually pretty helpful but cost almost 200 bucks a month plus my ability to pee standing up

It might sound like I really resent medication, and I do a little bit, but I’m very much happier to be medicated than I am otherwise, for reasons. I was very much in @yarusenai 's position for a long time and I’m really grateful that I resumed medication. I feel much less inclined to act out than before and that’s done nothing but good for me

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i was, in the past, prescribed both

  • Vistaril / hydroxyzine / antihistamine, anxiety mitigation

and

  • Seroquel / quetiapine / potent antipsychotic, heavy sleep aid (but more like a tranquilizer)

these prescriptions originated during my stay in the psych ward. their respective effectivenesses sharply contrast one another, but in both cases the end result is unsatisfactory: hydroxyzine feels like nothing so much as a placebo, having minimal impact on ongoing anxiety attacks. quetiapine, on the other hand, hits you like a brick wall. it also continues to hit you for the next 20 hours, and as such it ruins your entire next day. fuck that shit as a sleep aid.

been swallowing escitalopram daily since 2011 for anxiety

i am now less anxious to the point of regularly giving no or few fucks which i suppose comes with its own issues but i prefer not being anxious

i probably mix them with alcohol too often

my lamotrigine dose got doubled at my most recent dr visit

going ok so far i guess

megan gave me some of her buspar / buspirone the other day and it about knocked me on my ass.

that shit don’t play

well, not sure if it’s related to my meds, but i am feeling the following symptoms today:

shortness of breath, volatile stomach, loss of appetite, high stress leading to crying spells

not a good day to be at work, but so far i’m just toughing it out. my manager on duty is a really good guy

hang in there bud. even if it feels awful, time will keep on passing and your day will be over before you know it! :happig:

i took off work today because i felt unwell

feels pretty bad

i called my dr and left him a message